I went to church today fulling expecting the pastor to affirm my faith and reassure me that I am a good Christian. What I got instead was the embarrassing reality that I am a hypocrite. I get mad at other people for talking smack about others, when I in turn do it myself. Just on the way to church my kids and I were talking about people that actually go to our church, in not such a favorable way either.
How can I teach my children not to do this when I myself do this? It is hard to explain to them one thing when you do it yourself. I feel like such an asshole for even doing this. I hate when people talk about others and here I am doing it, in front of my kids!!!
I am sending out the wrong message to them. I have always taught my kids that all people are equal in my eyes, yet I talk about them as if they were beneath me. That I am somehow better than they are.
I am making an effort to practice what I preach. No more talking about other people, no matter how much I want to. I need to remember that we are all equal in God's eyes, the same thing that I tell my kids all the time. My pastor was talking about his mother who just recently passed away. She was 85 years old and he never once heard her talk about anyone. Can any of us make that claim???? I know I can't.
I met a lady yesterday who actually married someone from my childhood that I do not remember in a good way. He and his family were just bad news. Drugs, drinking, abuse...I could go on. Now this lady is one of the nicest and sweetest women I have ever met. When I figured out that SHE was married to HIM, I was shocked. How could she have married him?? Now I realize, there is more to a person than we may ever know. I could have easily dismissed her due to her being married to him, but instead, I am her friend and will continue to be one. Meeting her and talking to her has inspired me to be more like her and my pastors late mother. Think about this.
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